I’m just not good enough

I believe that we can’t fully comprehend the greatness of the Christian God, that’s just part of being a finite being trying to comprehend an infinite one. I am so glad he makes himself known to us and that we aren’t saved based on our knowledge.

I sigh when I see people try to disprove God. I mean no disrespect, but it seems to me like to a bacteria doubting that the dog it lives on exists. it can’t see the dog. dogs are probably a myth. and all of its bacteria friends agree: dogs don’t exist. but in the end, the dog’s existence doesn’t really depend on what the microbes think about it.

the bacteria is trying to punch above its weight, so to speak. the dog is just too big to fathom. it’s just like us, we can reason all we want but as finite beings trying to understand the infinite, I feel that relying on human logic over the logic of God is pretty laughable. human logic is just not big enough. it’s not that we’re stupid, but we sure aren’t smart enough.

that said, I believe that God still gives us our intellect for a reason and I (try) to use mine. I muse. Though my logic is minute compared to the vastness of infinity, I still have a thought.

by my human logic, the single “proof” I have as to the truth of the Christian gospel is that it openly says that you can’t be good enough. I’ve been in the pit. I know I’m not good enough to save myself or even really make myself better. And nothing that I’ve seen that other faiths tout that could ‘make me good’ enough are possible to achieve when you really confront it. Every other faith says “try harder”. I tried the hardest that was possible and it got me nowhere.

Now, maybe you are a stronger person than I am. I suppose it’s possible. But I have seen no evidence than any human is good enough to reach perfection. If you think you are good enough, then I propose that you haven’t thought much about how good perfect really is. Or you haven’t reached the true depths of the pit yet. Let me tell you, trying to earn your value is a straight path to that pit – saying this from experience.

I’m not a debater. I just wanted to share the hope that I have. I’ve heard it said that other faiths ask “what can I do?”, while Christianity asks “what did God do for me?”. It gives me hope, because I’m not good enough. Thankfully, thanks to Jesus that pressure is off of my weak shoulders.